I know this sounds like something coming from a schizophrenic drug addict but I promise I have never done hard drugs in my life, the only drugs I have ever consumed was small amounts of alchohol from communion when I was still a christian. While I don't believe in religion, I believe the abrahamic hell is the closest thing to what reality is. The suffering is completely incomprehensible. Every second of our lives life is passing in and out of us, all continuing on the cycle of suffering. Even if we die, we will decompose and be absorbed into other beings. And even then, it's not like we disappear out of existence, our atoms haven't gone anywhere. Identity is just an illusion of consciousness, as we are everything and everything is us. The suffering is also endless, as our existence is bound to die and be rebirthed over and over again, likely for eternity. To give an example of what I mean: even if I wanted to kill myself right now, while I would temporarily end the suffering my consciousness endures, my body would still be passed on to other organisms however small or large. Those organisms would continue to suffer and be passed on to other organisms, this is a process that has already happened throughout our entire lives, and trying to comprehend the amount of suffering that has branched off of the body your consciousness has inhabited is impossible, let alone what has been passed on to you. This process will continue to happen for eternity, and while my conciousness may cease to exist, my body has not, and therefore the suffering has not. The heat death of the universe may happen, but so will the big bang, there is no end. My outlook on life isn't necessarily nihilism however, my belief is that because it is completely impossible to end the suffering, the best thing we can really hope to do is just live our best lives with as little suffering as possible, and where possible lessen the suffering of others. Long term I think the only real thing we can hope for is for someone to find the reason why and how we exist, and find a way to end suffering for good.
While I don't believe in religion, I believe the abrahamic hell is the closest thing to what reality is. The suffering is completely incomprehensible. Every second of our lives life is passing in and out of us, all continuing on the cycle of suffering. Even if we die, we will decompose and be absorbed into other beings. And even then, it's not like we disappear out of existence, our atoms haven't gone anywhere. Identity is just an illusion of consciousness, as we are everything and everything is us. The suffering is also endless, as our existence is bound to die and be rebirthed over and over again, likely for eternity.
To give an example of what I mean: even if I wanted to kill myself right now, while I would temporarily end the suffering my consciousness endures, my body would still be passed on to other organisms however small or large. Those organisms would continue to suffer and be passed on to other organisms, this is a process that has already happened throughout our entire lives, and trying to comprehend the amount of suffering that has branched off of the body your consciousness has inhabited is impossible, let alone what has been passed on to you. This process will continue to happen for eternity, and while my conciousness may cease to exist, my body has not, and therefore the suffering has not. The heat death of the universe may happen, but so will the big bang, there is no end.
My outlook on life isn't necessarily nihilism however, my belief is that because it is completely impossible to end the suffering, the best thing we can really hope to do is just live our best lives with as little suffering as possible, and where possible lessen the suffering of others. Long term I think the only real thing we can hope for is for someone to find the reason why and how we exist, and find a way to end suffering for good.