Do you people ever feel this extremely primitive feeling that you dont care about someone or something anymore, its almost instant and most of the times cannot be explained. Generally when it comes to that happening i try to rationalize the feeling and pinpoint what exactly i think went wrong, but as time goes on i ve been trying less and less to rationalize and simply consider it a bodily reaction to something higher than my understanding. What does exactly control desire and why do we feel so powerless to it, any book recommendations welcome :>

i know exactly what you mean. it's like a switch gets flicked off. i would assume that it happens because you never really cared about that something or someone in the first place and have finally bottomed out on your "pretend-to-care" energy reserves, or something like that, but it's not a voluntary pretending, it's the kind of pretending that also fools you, the pretender.

maybe desire is something that is hardwired in our brain and we are just larping most of the time

Yes, I've been feeling generally detached and kind of not giving a shit about anything for a few years now.
Maybe I've just become emotionally dead. Or maybe I just grew up. Whatever.

I'd like to recommend the book Serious Weakness. It is a book about feeling fed up and stagnant and boxed in by life. It is also extremely disturbing, so tread lightly.

if you don't like being disturbed then you's a bitch!

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thank you so much for recommending this book, i'm about halfway through and i've been loving every second. it's relatable in all the worst ways and i love that.

yeah, and it can happen in the middle of conversation with good friends too, where suddenly in my bones i couldn't give less of a fuck about them as grass under foot on a summer's day. it usually goes away though, i think it's just feeling too drained and not having the ability to opt out of the social interaction, because at the end of the day i do still care whether these people live or die, i just used up all my emotion minutes.

>>7
aww, im glad to hear it! its my favorite book :3