i am in love with horrorluv, but i know she has a wife so i can't be with him, also i am a man and not a cute girl like Diaochan. i just want to cuddle in horrorluvs lap while she sings me chinese love songs and we ramble about the enshittification of reality, i want this so much and knowing i cant ever have it is maddening, i love you horrorluv but i can’t be with you and i never will and that truth it drives me crazy, horrorluv i love you, you have given me something no one has ever given me, something i didn’t think i could have, you saw me, or at least it felt like you did, even if it’s just in my head, even if i’m a shadow at the edge of your world, just know that you have changed my life for the better