Does anyone feel like there is no sense of community online? I remember when I was a teen I would find tons of other like minded teens online and just talk about random crap, in fact that's how I got into most of my interests like tech and anime. But these days it feels hard to do that anymore, my old friends are rarely online and when they are they give terse and brief responses, like they don't even care. Finding others is impossible, I mostly watch YT as my main social media and it's entirely parasocial, the channel can talk to me but I have no real impactful way of talking to them. For example I obviously watch n0 and osakasyndrome, and while I can leave a comment, at most I get a simple heart. Of course I'm not expecting for every comment to lead to a life changing conversation, frankly there's only so much that two people can pry out of their head to contribute meaningfully to a conversation online, but I guess I'm disappointed that that doesn't happen. Even by writing this post I guess part of me hopes that I can yell into the void and hear a response back.

I feel sad that adult connections just feel like meaningless filler these days, sure sometimes you can get something great out of it, but those moments seem to be getting further and further apart. Maybe it's my problem, that I'm expecting more and feeling disappointed with less.