I feel like I was emotionally scarred by someone giving me an overwhelming amount of attention

I met them two years ago on a TF2 server, and from the very start they flooded me with constant attention. Over time, I got used to it. Now, after we had a falling out, that nonstop presence is suddenly gone. I'm alone again, and the silence feels deafening.
What should I do? There's no chance of us ever being friends again. If I had known how this would end, I never would have added them in the first place.

lole

>>2
what's so funny?

>>1

falling out

About what? Why can't you be friends anymore?

Yeah getting used to your own company after being social is one of the hardest things in the world dude
I think the best advice I could give you is to try and work on having a better relationship with yourself, because chances are if you cannot cope with being alone with your own thoughts then there might be some baggage that hasn't been addressed
And that isn't me trying to put you down, you are probably a cool person but it could be a way of coping

>>4
I initially ended the friendship because of many frustrations I had with them. We later reconciled, but the same issues resurfaced and I chose to end things again. I regretted that decision as well, but by then they had reached their limit and didn’t want to continue the friendship.

Find Jesus

>>7
Where does he hang out?

>>8
Utah

I have a very similar issue. Got rather close with someone over the course of about half a year (essentially talking near constantly for like 4-8 hours EVERY DAY) and had to cut it off. It was for the best, but I miss them and think about them often, even though they weren't a good person. I think that probably says more about me than it does about them, though. Either way, I feel you, OP. You're definitely not alone in experiencing this sort of thing.

>>11
The issue is that I feel like I'm all alone now. I'm always that one friend on the side that nobody hates but nobody really likes either. I don't know what to do. I don't know if I should try to get back in contact with that one friend or continue trying to meet new people which hasn't been really working out.

>>12
read books or manga or something. grwat time sink, no other people needed

>>12
Same tbh.

How wide of a net are you casting? How are you trying to find friends?

there are times in which i'm legitimately in an awful frame of mind. if this happens, i just pull out all my mental defenses to mellow out and center myself again. what these defenses look like vary from person to person, but some sort of ritual always helps me to center myself if i'm having bad brain-feels again

but beyond just having certain ways to reign myself in, i just focus on enjoying things i enjoy like writing, reading, material pleasures like food, coffee, or tea, and computer games. semper autism

>>14
Not gonna lie i tried making friends on /frengen/ threads on /lgbt/ but it hasn't really worked out however I recently contacted an old friend and he invited me to one of his friend groups so i think things are gonna work out.

>>17
eventually you run out of old friendships to necromance

>>18
I fear that