you have to get really lucky in order to find people who you can be honest with. if you haven't found them yet, you either keep looking, which might never reward you, and don't ask me where you should look because i don't know either, i avoid strangers like they're feral animals, or you give up and make peace with being alone. i've found exactly three individuals, two being friends and one being family, in my vicinity with whom i feel i can express my true thoughts and feelings, and unfortunately i only get to see them on rare occasions (one of them i haven't seen in over two years, i really miss him). while i generally avoid speaking, i try to always be honest when i do speak, even with people who will definitely hate me for it, but i can afford to do that because i know what to do if they become confrontational over it. i try not to antagonize others but i'm not gonna act like someone i'm not just to please strangers, and i know that humans were made different from one another in such meaningless ways so that conflict would inevitably arise among them to serve as entertainment for whatever invisible force is pulling the strings. i wish you the best luck in finding someone you can trust.