I want to know.

i want to bear witness to the chinese century

i want to bear witness to the second makhnovschina

otaku culture

moe

women are attracted to me

i want to bear witness to the industrial age collapse and the rise of neo-feudalism

spite
>>5
and moe yea

>>5
yeah moe's a good reason

i get free money from the gubbermint, my health is tolerable and what >>5 said.

there are more things to learn, places to go, people to meet, songs to hear

Despite this entire world being a fake and gay hellscape of suffering, I love my family and the small things in life that bring me pleasure. I want to experience them more than I want to cease to exist. This could change of course, but for now the former out-weighs the latter.

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Meant the other way around, woops.

I'm too pussy

i would if assisted suicide was legal. i just want a safe clean way to die instead of something that can trigger a survival instinct. i don't want to end up like those people who shot their face off but still lived

cup noodle for lunch, how can i think of death in such a blessed state of existence?

noodle salad

i like looking at and making art too much

need to finish my novel first

manga list

procrastination

I really don't want to screw up and end up in a hospital again, because I've been there too much, so I'm waiting until I get SN/PN on my hands, but this would require living on my own or at least finding a time frame, where I can execute my plan comfortably.

I'm okay with the way things are right now.

I stopped hating myself after a psychosis episode like 2 weeks ago where I overcame me caring what people who hate me think about me and relaxing how valuable and smart I see myself as now. I literally cried in front of my professor and said I love myself with more resolution than I ever had in my life. Biggest lesson I took from the experience is that it takes muscles to smile (you know on your mouth) and it won't just spontaneously come to you out of nowhere. Annoying cop told me that smiling is bad advice though during the episode which the campus therapist told me later that is literally scientifically false lol

would make my parents sad and i wouldnt want to make my parents sad

>>25
Are you in uni?

>>27
Yeah just started this year in my mid twenties after never going since leaving highschool. Evergreen State College the meme one with the Weinstein guy who hanged out with Jordan Peterson lol Most trans place I have ever been, though I have not been many places. Like half my class for Lacan was trans in some way it was kinda crazy lol

Because I am afraid of dying and of maybe going to hell

I reject the premise of the question.

>>30
aye, i've always been more of a externalizer than an internalizer, so the question to me is more like "why haven't I killed someone else", and my answerr to that is usually some kind of monk-like self control, because god have i considered it.

I'm actually Tails from Sonic so I can never die

to kill yourself is a philosophical question that's why you cant interact with it literally, its a spiral of itself

i love people and animals and art more than i hate the cruel indifference of existence so i'm just vibing while my meatpuppet allows it

good one

It’s not worth the bother killing yourself since you always kill yourself too late

still got stuff i want to do

There's too much pussy out there that's unsmashed for me to kill myself

>>39
Normie

I need to expose more of the communist computer god world-wide frankenstein slavery conspiracy. They'd revive me if I killed myself anyway

no reason to, im cooped up alone most days and mainly interact with family but this life is sufficient for me

Action Taimanin, hentai, and food

some days are harder than others, but I get by

mio k on <3

the loop of getting into a good swing of things and then losing every relationship i have kind of keeps me going ig

Cause I just successfully made a 2 mile walk a habit every day and my legs feel so much better and my ass is perky

jew world order happenings are mildly fascinating enough to not end it and continue following them out of curiosity what the next psyop normalnaggers will care about next

I don't want to reborn as an Indian.

too scared to and i want to be good at the guitar first

I keep distracting myself with random adventures. The last two adventures lasted about 4 years and 3 years, the in between periods is when I am actively suicidal like right now. It's pretty hard to die either way, but I feel like it's easier in the summer, like many things

>>51
What kind of adventures

I don't know, and that is what keeps me going — the need to understand myself and my purpose. Why I like? If I like? Do I *really* like? Am I so? etc. The need to answer the "I" is my primary logical motivator.

I don't know, and that is what keeps me going — the need to understand myself and my purpose. Why I like? If I like? Do I *really* like? Am I so? etc. The need to answer the "I" is my primary logical motivator.

never insert I or yourself in a question, instead question the things moving you and forcing you around, poeple are a herd and they follow the flow

It would hurt my family, and I'd go to hell. In that order.