I stopped hating myself after a psychosis episode like 2 weeks ago where I overcame me caring what people who hate me think about me and relaxing how valuable and smart I see myself as now. I literally cried in front of my professor and said I love myself with more resolution than I ever had in my life. Biggest lesson I took from the experience is that it takes muscles to smile (you know on your mouth) and it won't just spontaneously come to you out of nowhere. Annoying cop told me that smiling is bad advice though during the episode which the campus therapist told me later that is literally scientifically false lol