I've been really stressed out recently but I barely notice it until I'm physically so tense I almost burst and I'm worried it's insidiously seeping into my words and attitudes without me intending and I begin to second guess myself in self loathing. I feel an urge to apologize for something to someone, I don't know what or who, so I'm venting here. Am I being miserable now? I can't even tell and that makes me want to cry.