Half a month has past. I've been brought by the tremors of existance into a sort of stupor.
Since this reflection will be more collected, and therefore, comprehensible, I've decided it would be for the best to publish it in the shill board; I'll be sort of promoting myself. But only sort of.

The source folder now weighs about half a mega-byte. This is just the code, the text, the instructions.
The projetct I started almost half an year ago and that I thought I would complete in a little over a month -- well I guess these sort of things would never happen if some psycho didn't underestimate some technical challenges.

The truth is nobody as succeded in what I am doing here, and I've searched the internet quite a bit. There were some specialised machine learning approaches that were very limited, student project sort of stuff, and a micro-celeb using LLM's to approximate something similar.

Let us just say I am making a programme that plays a very particular game for me. I won't say much more because otherwise the surprise would be gone -- and it won't be long (barring yet another massive underestimation) for my little foray to come to completion.

And I plan to make (forgive me). A hit video about it. There it came, the self promotion.
I think that when I finaly release it I will share the link here.

My video approaches have always been split between a more or less denpa-ish angle, that is always half-aborted by meager attempts for comprehsibility. I only have in my catalogue _one_ true denpa-video... there were more, but I deleted them, only the fittest survived, my precious, my little bundle of joy. You know, whenever I rewatch that video I feel really happy.. for a while at least. It was my only minor-success in somewhat realising my visions. It bombed of course.

Why do I want to succeed? Well that is a long story. Tonikaku, I want to succeed, and I've been trying to do so for quite many years.

Of course there is the Neetish avoidance of wage-labour aspect.
The Otaku culture aspect as well. The creative aspect even.
But also (otherwise, this would've been still way to human of an endeavour) there is someone I really _really_ want to meet no matter what. And I need a hit video for that to ever come into fruition capiche?

I refuse that I should lie down and accept the fact that I shouldn't love someone only because fate decided that we were to born apart from each other, in life trajectories that might never collide. I refuse. I'll struggle against faith until my last breath.

Another update will come. Either in Intermezzo, or in triumph, or in dejection.
But I feel like the wind is behind my back. The software is almost finished! The script is taking shape and has clear (oh so juice and normie appealing) narrative! And the editing? This sort of videos, that have such strong a concept, always edit themselves don't you know?

I can promise you that at least the conclusion (outro) will be denpa, I have a sonnet laying around my SSD that wants to see the light of day:

Em todas as coisas uma tristeza invisível.....

In all things an invisible sadness.....

Thus spake Zarathustra.

im rooting for you, z

Welcome everyone to the second-to-last update. This one will be a very scatter brained and personal update.
Second-to-last because the video still isn't ready, but it'll be ready by the time the next update comes around, things are pretty much settled and it is just a question of time now.
Release date?

At the latest by the end of the month, I'd like to get it done a bit sooner. I've done plenty of video editing before even complex collages and compositions, so I'm relatively confident that it won't take longer than 1-2 weeks for the editing. The biggest concern is the final spurt unexpected bug-fixing and the gameplay itself, more than any editing concerns.
For the editing I'll try to mostly go for a hand-drawn aesthetic with some wholesome 100 quirkiness, not because I am a fan of the aesthetic, but simple because it is "safe" and easy to pull-off [drawing tablet + krita for the win]. You know what they say, Keep It Simple Stupid. No more avant-gard collage for me, I am a reformed shakai-jin (not) now.

That being said, the programme is still not done, I need one final (big) debug session to tie-up some loose ends, thank god no big architectural changes, or major features to be added. And then one other (smaller) debug session for some small extensions I'll need to include. I had an annoying navigation bug, and a opaque scheduler interaction [yes, this piece of crap has cooperative scheduling] that really threw me for a loop, the worst was a part of the programme I had marked as "bug-free" but actually wasn't, those where 2 and a half (10 hour) workdays down the drain.
This last-spurt has given me a fair number of nervous (psychotic?) breakdowns; and throbbing unilateral headache. I think I'm really running low on intellectual (and bodily) energy. That's what I get for not taking breaks, and eating like shit, not only do I end up writing crap code; but eventually I can't even write code at all because of the headache.

Anyway, enough wallowing in self-pity.
Another "difficult thing" that is left on our plates is the japanese script. I think that it is quite smart to exploit the japanese audience directly, a very isolated audience that doesn't speak much english, so much so, that there are whole channels dedicated to "translating" (localizing?) western "content" for the japanese audience. A few months ago I was considering this quesition and I found a channel that (using the waaaay to common "yukuri voice" summarised DREAM SMP videos).
So yeah, as a savvy entrepreneur I want in.

I being needlessly aloof. Of course it is not just about the entrepreneurial angle.

Being honest here I am close to a complete breakdown. But at least so is the video. So either it breaks or I will, and I am not in a mood for failing this time. I think this actually can do it, I think I might actually pull through this time.
I guess this is why I've been feeling extra-crap and extra-paranoid. Imagine if everything came to nought, if I was run over by a bus sometime soon.... what a waste.

Now I'd like to have an even more personal aside. I think the posts here (denpachan) have been even more negative than unusual. Well life seems more negative than usual as-well, but I don't really have an object perspective on that. I fear that at times I have contributed to the toxicity, I am sorry, but I always have to speak my mind, otherwise the little sanity that I have left will be lost forever.

I just want life to be joyous again. The winter has been long. And this time in the desert has made me prickly. I keep fighting for a more joyous life.... Well I'll level with you, I've been scratching some of the bucket list anime out; I really don't think I can keep going if this fails.

Stay strong friends, we'll meet again shortly, I'll do this final push, and we'll all go to Valinor or whatever.

Thus communicated through the official channels, Zarathustra.

I did it! Only >1 month off schedule! Ahahahah I really am the master at underestimating things:

https://youtu.be/skaG-hkZ8s8

Schizophrenia contained until the very end, where I let all the denpa energies out. I'm going to be crashing out (to sleep) soon, I'm done.
If this doesn't go well I don't know where I can stick myself. I know I am a crazy guy, I know I'm creepy, I know I am stupid, but I will keep raging this war while I still have the power to do it. I'm sorry guys, I'm sorry I'm a loser, I'm sorry I'm a freak, I'm sorry I am a self centered prole; if only I could be a self-cenetered ownership class instead.

Ok, I'll hold myself off for now, they don't even let have schizo-breakdowns in the schizo-breakdowns society, can't have shit in the schizo-breakdowns society.

BUT HEY, I DID IT. I did 1 (one) thing, and even that not that well. Why wasn't I born the son of Lawrence Stroll man.

it certianlly was a thing that did stuff until something happened and it stopped.
might help if i knew literally anything about more than base minecraft.

>>5
You're quite spot-on on with the description.
It pretty much keeled over before anything substantially modded happened, so there was not much to know beyond standard minecraft stuff. (Mea Culpa with the bird brained fatal programming mistake(s)).

Reinforces/coincides that the video might have turned out too vapid though.