i truly feel like these types of relationships are holding me back, i get that everyone has their own life and all but i really want to be 100% in tune with my friends. I don’t consider my “best friends” to just be there to have mindless fun, we are supposed to be ride or die. Right now for me it’s to the point where i simply refuse to let them know how i’m feeling about the things they might do cause whenever i do i get the same “you can’t expect everyone to act like that” and i truly believe that this train of thought is bs